Filed under: i´ll be forever blue, no more words, tierna y triste es la noche
for … you know whom
(i had another attack. i was in the metrobus and i felt that i was unable to breath, my hands and stomach began to be numb, my vision was blurry [just for some seconds], i had a headache, but this time all these symptoms were joined by a new pain in my chest, a pain which i couldn´t recognize, this was what freaked me out.
i gave up … i need to see another doctor. i hate myself for being so fragile)
Filed under: i´ll be forever blue, no more words, tierna y triste es la noche
el estallido blancuzco lo cegó, / le imprimió su huella oscura en los ojos, / y lo redujo a un asombro, tímido. / Quiso pensar que ya era un hombre nuevo / y quiso contagiar a todos de su / nueva rabia, esa felicidad líquida.
Filed under: early in the morning, i´ll be forever blue, no more words, tierna y triste es la noche
these last three days have been cold as hell.
maybe because we are not used to this kind of freezing experience
or maybe because we are catholic and believe in virgin Mary
or maybe because light changes with this freezing weather
or maybe because … well i don´t know why
we, mexicans, experience a dramatic change
and become kinder and sympathetic
(or is it just my imagination and we are always kind and sympathetic?)
Filed under: tierna y triste es la noche
I want to say that today was an excellent day, or almost. today i heard the news: my job, which has given me some headaches and panic attacks (today i had one, a mild one, but still), has rendered what it was expected of it: we, as a faculty and according to the standards of CIEES (Comités interinstitucionales para la evaluación de la educación superior), got the level 1, which means that we are an exceedingly perstigious faculty etc, etc , etc.
im proud of my job but i dread my panic attacks. how can i control them?
