Filed under: i´ll be forever blue
normally i would be afraid of drowning, but now is exactly what i need: i do not have water (is that sufficiently correct? do alll of you have a clear idea of what is going on? do all of you understand that when i want to wash my dishes or take a bath i can´t?) this is the third time in this week, it is impossible to live like this, don´t you think? no matter how hard i complain they do not take it seriously. i will stop paying rent and see if they do not care. i hate them, really. they are lazy, and clumsy, and they have that very mexican characteristic INDIFFERENCE to the others; they simply can´t care, they do not have the feelings, or the brains, or both to be sympathetic. “they” means my landlady and the guy who collects my money every month.
well, no; “that very mexican characteristic” is universal, my canadian editor hasn´t answer my mail where i express my dissappointment.
chale, qué días son estos??
Filed under: alegría, i´ll be forever blue, loneliness, no more words, nostalgia
“ya en la refriega de todas las balas, / ya en el último de todos sus días, / se aferró con amor a una sola imagen: / (una increíble promesa de infancia) / el viento que habría en las tardes de glamur y pereza. “
Filed under: alegría
tomorrow is the day. for the last two years we´ve been working on a text; its major characteristic is … its complexity and the mad amount of information (the mad amount of effort) it required. fortunately, we have finished it and tomorrow we will give it to the famous CIEES. i´m trembling with emotion and i´m very tired.
after two years i have these things to say: i went to england, i bought a new computer, i paid my rent on time but my eyes need a doctor, my legs are in pain (constantly), i haven´t got my masters, i haven´t finished a poem since may etc.
however, i have to honour my own blog “work has to be done” and, honestly, im proud of my work.
Filed under: i´ll be forever blue
a liliana
“Desesperado y todo, tuvo tiempo / de mirar, lacónico, la tristeza / de todos los árboles, la dolencia / del viento, lo incurable de la tarde.”
Filed under: early in the morning
hoy encendí la computadora para darme cuenta de que toda mi información se había ido: fotos, preferencias, programas, música, textos. estoy tranquilo porque siempre hago una copia de casi todo lo que guardo; sin embargo, hubo textos y fotos que perdí para siempre. no sé qué hice ayer. sé que exploré el HD de la computadora y moví y moví cosas, tal vez en todo ese movimiento borré algo y con ese algo se fue todo. ojalá no sea algo irreparable, es decir, que lo que haya borrado ayer no siga produciendo problemas.
se veía tan solo y feo el iphoto, que se me estrujó el corazón.
